Hello,
I have to say that I know exactly what you are talking about. I was reading your post and I felt like I was the one that wrote it. It was that close to how things have been with me. I too am tired of what i am seeing go on in the world, I too am a student, and I too have been phacking up my schooling for the same reasons.
There are various reasons for why this may be happening. We can do so very little to change the world. My mind is wracked with issues and ideas about what we could do and why no one will do it. It is indeed crazy making. It is very hard to get out of the cycle that you are in (and I am in as well, I have not fully extricated myself from it). It is a form of depression. The internet will stimulate you, keep you in a comfortable spot, and keep you entertained.
First thing you need to do is get our of your house and go to the gym. I would tell you to see a therapist, but I haven't even done that, though I still might. Go to the gym, hit it hard, get your body moving, stretch.
If you are posting on here I am guessing you are wondering about gear and if it may help you. I got my first cycle from steroid-shop, it was a very short cycle of Tbol, and it worked like a charm. I've continuously been trying to get more but they have been out of stock for a while.........
Anyways, if you hit the weights and train a bit, you will feel better and look better. Your self image will improve, and thats key to getting out of the slump. Get some Tbol if you are interested in AAS, and get some Nolvadex for PCT.
Sometimes depression can kick in because of a drop in testosterone levels. All of us men know that testosterone is a huge motivator for us to get off our asses, go to work, get lots of money, and get the babes. When I got on the Tbol, it raised my test lvls and I felt great. I was running and training like I hadn't in so long, felt fantastic. Now that the cycle is over and I am on PCT I still feel good, I have kept most of the gains and I am still in the gym.
You just need something to snap you out of your slump. If you can't make yourself go see a counselor, a small short cycle to boost your test might do the trick. Be well and I hope this has been useful.